Oi, it’s been an interesting past couple of days. I wrote back a while ago about hooping and bipolar disorder. I have been fortunate that I have been fairly stable, except for the past couple of days.
Wednesday was one of those days. I was in a horrible mood and very anxious. I probably shouldn’t have gone to class that day. I thought the exercise would do me some good, and it did. It really did. Movement helped release some tension. I just couldn’t focus and concentrate on the moves we were learning for crap.
Katie was so patient with me. I just wasn’t being patient with myself. Frustration kept in and made it harder for me to learn that evening. It’s sort of like trying really hard to fall asleep: the harder you try, the harder it actually is to fall asleep.
The truth is, I was on my to having a bipolar meltdown similar to one I had a few years ago that landed me in a hospital for a few days. Luckily, I was able to recognize being on that slope,and took a day to refocus, and, more importantly, get help. A simple medication adjustment has made a world of difference. Right now, I’m back to my usual self.
On the upside, fun plans have me looking forward to the weekend, and that helps brighten my mood a lot, too! I will have a full report next week.